Lonely_Me

2010-09-18T02:56:00.002+08:00

Hey, im back, at the time of 2.56am.

I envy weijie, i hate myself. I envy him for treasuring you at the right time. I hate myself for not being able to be the best friend/brather/suitor you ever had.

I think i have felt all those deservingly things i should be feeling. Seeing you two writing letters, im really envious, really. I wish i had this opportunity to communicate even the slightest with you. Comeuppance?I dare not say, but definitely to some extent. I wanna say i really miss your presence, even as a friend. I have no courage to face you, I totally cant bring myself to tell you face to face im sorry just because i cant. I feel like a totally useless person when i can only stare at your past messages on my old phone, telling myself i should have treasured you, i should have..

Memories flooded me whenever i feel alone in the night. I thought of you, the times we spent, be it movies, going out or chatting over the phone. I still remember vividly how you sneaked out to your fridge to eat a chocolate in the middle of the night at arnd 3.30am, the day before we went snow city.

Sometimes i really resign myself to fate. I remember I told myself this, "I will only be looking after you when Weijie's not around" and now that he is back, i feel sad to leave. Are we destine to end up this way?I know im at fault for playing the most part of it, but who knows why i do so. I doubt anyone, or perhaps, only one or two of my closest of friends. If we are destined to end up like this, why give me two opportunities to meet you, or three! (Sec 2 prank, P.s. i loveyou outing, its a boy girl thing.) I wish we separate soon, so probably you will be forgotten fast, or rather i wont have to face you everyday, reminiscing our past. How strainful it is, to have to endure it everyday? Why meet you. Why???????????????? I know im like ranting, but sometimes i just gotta say the truth. If meeting you brings all these undesired situation, why bother. I know i suck, seriously i do.

I hope you two will be back together again, my two lost friends.

Stop and stare, no more.

End.

2010-08-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

When i was at tm today, waiting for my bus to come, i take a look at the mrt track from below, the bus you always took, and recalled to the day we first go out in a group. When we were going home from the PSIloveyou outing, i was taking the train to Pasir Ris instead of my usual route to Kovan from Dhoby Ghaut. The trip with you people were enjoyable, esp when yinghui, weijie all did not alight at their lavender and aljunied stops respectively. I was accompanying everyone till they alight(supposedly) since Pasir Ris is the terminal station. However, none of your alighted except Sally, even you decided to take to Pasir Ris. I was texting Sally after she alighted, and after i alighted, reached my bus stop, i texted you, telling you to take care and such, and i rmbed you asking if i said the same things to Sally. I thought you peeked at my msg haha.

And well, looking at the 69, i didnt know you will be there. All i thought was, the bus was filled with our trips to and fro Tampines-Bedok. And recently i even remb the day we went to wrap presents for Karen. You were frightened by a cat! haha. alrights, thats all in the past though.

Bon Voyage for your new hike at Johor(???? like wth) LOL.

k yeah, was thinking if one day we do talk again, i bet thats going to be damn awkward, yeah. Street Dance 3D later! niceeeeeeeee! Cant wait :D and dining with my cool peeps again :D

Thats about all, take care ppl!

2010-07-28T19:52:00.002+08:00

I really didnt mean to turn away, i wished i stared longer, but you came rushing over too suddenly, i cant know how to react in time.. I didnt mean it, i really really really really really really really really really really didnt mean it......

Anyway, im left with 152 days, though talking to you feels like talking to a wall, im still feeling very happy still, really really very happy :D but... when that day comes, i guess i will tell myself, 'Weiseng, you tried your best, its time to get over her and move on. She's not gonna reply you anymore, and she will never be your 'mei' to meet uncle zhou with you everyday again.'

Take care, and jiayous, and i pray, this day will never come.

Fearless - Taylor Swift :D
There's somethin' 'bout the way the street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot, yeah

We're drivin' down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absent-mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

So baby drive slow 'til we run out of road
In this one horse town, I wanna stay right here
In this passenger seat, you put your eyes on me
In this moment, now capture it, remember it

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

Well, you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake, I'm not usually this way
But you pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss, it's flawless, really somethin'
It's fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

2010-07-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

I just have a request, a simple one.
Im asking for no more, than just to having our 'siblings' ties' back, dont wna severe it anymore, anymore.

2010-07-27T20:41:00.001+08:00

Saw this when i was finding for your contact.

'Joanna is a feminine given name deriving from Koine Greek Ἰωάννα Iōanna from Hebrew יוֹחָנָה Yôḥānnāh meaning "God is gracious" '

I never knew your name's uniqueness till today.

2010-07-26T23:42:00.002+08:00

This is my fifth time tearing today, and its my record.
I just wanna say,

JOANNA TAN, BE MY MEI AGAIN, WILL YOU??

I HAVE LOADS AND LOADS TO TALK TO YOU!

these are some of the stuffs you talked to me,
'Good la don't talk t me alr
Still say wht mei and brather.
You always talk abt your problems
Never listen t my problems
I got problems cannot find you also.
Really v bad ): I want hear you talk abt your problems also canot
You v bad.
Dao me laaaa.
You gooooood.
That time...... 9nov
i call you, you kup.
Damn what laaa, msg ppl nvr msg me right?
WLAO EH!
HATE YOU LA!
YOU SAD CAN CALL ME
I SAD CANNOT XALL YOU
): ): ): '

These are some of the stuff you told me, and i promise, i will never mention a single thing about r/s again, come back will you.? Please, please, please. I really dont want to lose you, no matter who you are to me. I have never feel such importance of someone, not even the one i once loved most. Please, i will never talk about being strangers anymore. I know i know how you'd feel everytime i did so, im sorry, sorry, a thousand one for you, please, dont leave, please.

2010-07-26T20:10:00.002+08:00

Sorry, i teared over you.

I miss you, and your chats.

2010-07-26T16:38:00.002+08:00

A brand new week!

First up, im glad to see you back in schl again. Hope the trip was fun for you!

I was having break today at the library as i searched all over the shelves for a horror movie. Just when i started searching, the P.S.Iloveyou Movie VCD appeared right in front of me. I was rather stunned, and emotional after that.
Heard that guanxiang wanted to learn piano for the girl he likes(but he's more of seeking for attention i suppose-.-) and then i heard this song, which seems to be my latest favourite as i suppose im gonna learn it from marilyn soon.
MOVIES MOVIES MOVIES! So wanna catch that show 'streetdance'. It seem like a pretty good one but not many appreciated it as i got rejections on my event posted on facebook. Hope i get to watch this movie still!

Its okay to ignore me, because i know im a fault. I'll still talk to you, till one day when you reply me. And yes, i want to do that last thing for you too. Meanwhile, enjoy the latest playlist :)

takecare peeps!

2010-07-25T14:26:00.003+08:00

Its time to revive my blog i suppose!

First of all, i wanna apologize to my friend, weijie. yes, im sorry for whatever that has happened. I cant control my feelings, yeap.

Next, its to you.
You've always been clearly my go-to girl in the past. Whatever that i cant get to do with her, you've always been the one doing it with me, like catching a movie together, going out. But that doesnt mean you are a substitute or anything, its clearly you used to be my closest girl-friend back then. We drummed together, caught the movie 'Its a boy girl thing' didnt we.
You had the trifecta which i love, the 3s - Smart, Sensitive, Sexy(聪明, 体贴, 美丽). I just realised, when i love someone, i love all of them. I'm so sorry. And now im going to learn to love everything about you, not just the good things, but the bad things too. Not just the things i find lovable but also the things i find not lovable. I find selfishness in myself over these 2 years. I want to say, i'm so sorry, really. You're so important to me that i really dont want to lose you and sometimes i can't use the right word to express myself, because im really not good with words.

Your life goes on as usual, but you will always have 'someone out there who loves you', but what if you realise that someone is me, will you want me to be the one who loves you?

To you, my best friend(of the op. gender), whom i fell in love with.

I just want to say, if you ever need me, i can be there, and will definitely be. One sms, a call will do.

No matter you hate me or dont like me, i will still remember you for who you are, what you've done with me together, ever.

Special Thanks to JJ's encouragement and 'Valentine's Day' the movie, which encourages me to revive my blog and understanding more about love.

-Weiseng, signing off.

2009-12-27T13:13:00.002+08:00

sometimes you just have to admit that time do pass real fast, and so, thats the end of our 4 years in secondary school. during this four years, i have a whole new experience about life. i know more about ppl, making friends through hobbies or common interest etc.

Life in upper secondary is great, as i made a whole bunch of new friends. We click tgt damn fast, and we stand really united as one all the time. ppl like weijie, raymond, jingjie, jordan, reis, lowell etc.

On the other hand, i got to know what's true love during my upper sec life. and though i know i spent my time on all tis r/s and screwed my o lvls, i somewhat feel tat its all worthwhile. its nvr easy to experience it, really. if i can choose the path again, i'd probably walk it all over again, but tis time, i shld probably learn how to be early-.-

My confidante, Ms Goy ShiQin aka mrs tan yu xuan, is a gem in the class or school. I hadnt found someone who sincerely treats friends in school since i got promoted to secondary school. Though we're close now, i still want to tell you, im sorry confidante, i should have never abandon you at all, dui bu qi..

There's this girl who i have affection for, have always been standing by me thruout tis years. She's great, and i will never forget the moments i spent with her, snow city, 'its a boy-girl thing' NC16 movie(at 15 years of age) and sunrises~ Thank you, hope we can spend our christmas tgt in future..

and now.. class chalet. siannnnnnnn, no 4d3n, but im still really looking forward to it hahas. and i suppose im back to blogging?im not too sure either, seeyou soonz~~~

2009-07-22T19:14:00.002+08:00

Now, i finally realise the person who i treasure most, is the confidante who has treated me so well, exceptionally well since we first became confis. I know its all too late, i know im at fault, i know i will definitely try to hold you back, but i know i have absolutely no capability to do so.

Shi Qin, im sorry. you're the only one who's willing to stand by me when my world just seem to collapse. I haven't realise that till when the bond we once had, is no longer there. Though i really hope we can be confis again, and swear that this time round i would be by your side no matter what happen and no longer abandon u again, i know i cant do it anymore.

Shi Qin, now you're a changed person, no longer the one who prioritise a person. You've nvr treated me so cold before, till i felt my heart being pricked so hard by your actions and words today. Then i realise, you're no longer the confidante i once have, the one who would shout 'HELLO CONFIDANTE' everyday when u come into class, no more 'wo yao zuo ni de wei', 'Wei Seng shi yi ge da ben dan' anymore. In reminisce of the past, wondering how things would have turned out if i didnt abandon u. i really wanted to cherish you again, but i know, no more, thats it, you're gone. I guess i've taken you for granted. Goodbye 'Shiqin mustanswer!:) ', goodbye confidante.

-Sorry, WeiSeng

2009-01-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

THANKS EVERYONE! For the Presents, For the Surprises, EVERYTHING! :D
Thanks for all who have wished me on my birthday, thanks so so so so so so so much!
People who have wished me in order :

1) Rino bro
2) Sis
3) JingJie bro
4) QiYong bro
5) WeiJie bro
6) Amelia. O
7) Cheryl. K
8) Grace
9) Cheryl. N
10) ShiYong
11) MingHsun
12) Karen
13) Joanna mei
14) TohWei
15) TanYang
16) Lowell bro
17) Raymond bro
18) Jordan bro
19) Zeguang
20) SokMin
21) Joyce. S
22) JiaXing
23) WeiKian
24) Melisa
25) Yulya
26) Xuecen Jie
27) YiXuan
28) YiFan
29) Rachel. T
30) LiMay
31) Reis
32) ChengSheng
33) Sherina
34) Jolene
35) Aslyn
36) Marilyn teacher
37) Bryan
38) Jeremy
39) Charmaine. T
40) Ferica
41) Nicholas
42) JunMing
43) Rachel. L
44) MeiXuan
45) YengFai
46) ShiQin confidante
47) Zoe
48) CuiLin
49) YanYun
50) YiJue

these are the first 50 people to have wished me, and i sincerely thanks them for remembering my birthday! (:

In the morning, i was sick! omg, and took cab to school, (to get bashed =.=)
Firstly, i got presents from, Joanna and Sally, Zeguang and Karen!
I was then told that Rino Jingjie Shiqin forgot bout my presents =/ but nvm, im okay with it.
It wasnt long before the surprises came!
I was hungry during recess, so i went down to the canteen, to think it was all a plan=_="
Shiqin told me, "she was outside my class waiting to give me sth" so i ran all the way back with 2 chrysanthemum tea packs.
In the end, i was asking her where is she, and just when i went into the class, i saw a cake, and loads and loads of presents, with Party Poppers!
It was the surprise of my life man! I havent got surprise for damn long alr! (bcos im too smart to anticipate what things are gonna come HOHO! =D )
and yup, they sang me bilingual bday song, and i wished, and there i goes, i cut the cake.
I gave cakes to her, Joanna and Sally, Karen and Limay, before i ate mine. Presents from so many ppl :

Jingjie, rino, shiqin, nicholas, raymond, qiyong, chengsheng, tohwei, weijie, lowell.......

and i was told i got another cake from her. ha, believing in what i see and seeing what i believe in. Thanks ferica for the cake too! and so, i was flooded with presents on the way home. and celebration is tmr! after school and ccas people! SEOUL GARDEN =DD

Presents i can use : Everyone,
Presents i cant use : Joanna and Sally!! (this is wtheck =___="" )

but nvm, overall,

Special Thanks to : ShiQin and JingJie, for quantities and qualities, and Rino, for being the first to wish! =)) Thank you guys, thanks for the bday! it will be memorable, and i guess it will stay with me forever (:

2008-11-12T01:16:00.002+08:00

wow, im back, High School Musical 3 ROCKS HAHA! That was a great movie anyw. I lost taidi(is it spelt like this?) on a killing spree streak. z okay, hahas. Fantasy noob like siao for this week man, drop till 7th -.- hmm.. It's been 7 days ler, and there's 7 days more, ugh =/ Hope you're really enjoying yourself there and having fun hehhe take care!! =))

Holidays are boring, nothing to do one leh =/

To the first person im refering to :
Cheer up yo! Things are gonna get better, and i hope you will be back to your old self lah, the princess remember? :D

and ya, to this special person :
There's nothing much i can do anymore, so i guess, its time you should leave ler bah. From now on, you must really take care of yourself in all areas ler! Smile more :D I just want to say, You look real great when you smile, but its a pity those smiles arent for me. I need you, but the thing is, you no longer needs me. Your existence prove crucial, while mine looks faded in your heart, aye. Takecare, byeee.

2008-10-15T18:36:00.003+08:00

hmm. came here to write sth today, cos i feel like to.

firstly, eoy results abit disappointing but i didnt work hard for it either, so i can only have myself to blame for those sucky results.

okay. no more eoys stuffs.

I feel that i've learnt alot throughout these years in chungcheng. Things are never as simple as it maybe, but you can also choose to treat things as simple as it can be bcoz i feel much happier doing so hahas. Treasuring the memories i'm left with{from you}, and think no more about it until im really alone and have nothing to do, then maybe i can recap some of the wonderful memories together. As for liking someone, i think one needs alot of patience, giving your all and not asking for anything in return{maybe thats what i feel now}. I think if you really love someone, you shouldnt be thinking about possessing it but how to love it wholeheartedly, and maybe that's what we call - love.

Loving someone takes time, takes patience, takes energy, takes alot of memory space{to store memories when your are talking and such lols} but its all worthwhile. Maybe i should practise more on what i preach because i believe that when "she" is being love, she will feel the sense of happiness and when you know that "she" is happy, you will naturally be happy too so maybe thats about all, but i hope its of help to those who feels like getting with the girl they like but they cannot and are struggling too. (:
byebyeee.

signing off.

2008-09-24T18:35:00.002+08:00

Just feel like blogging out of the blue. I've been thinking, if only you two have not get together last year, maybe things will change. I remember we sang, we laughed, we talked a lot. You were my first love, and definitely my FL. I remember i was so unlucky when i walked you home for the first time, it was real unlucky. Our relationship soured after then. I was dumb, i was naive, to have believe in that b**tard. He, made me lose you. I tot you and your new found partner were going to last, but i guessed you two were over. Recently, i see you with another "him" , i feel really happy for you that you got over your previous "him" fast enough (: As long as you feel the happiness in you, im willing to do anything for you.

(to you) my FL : Now, i hope that you and your new "him" will get together asap, and last long, forever ;)

2008-09-04T22:53:00.002+08:00

Today, my last day to online as frequently as ever ler.
Exceptions: Friday nights, Saturday nights(for soccer)

I wonder why i couldnt get myself sit still, take out my pen and start doing hwk. Everything just seem so tough for me nowadays. The moral support u gave, used to be the pillar which holds me upright. For now, i guess i just have to get used to life w/o the, "pillar".
How nice, it'd be, if im able to keep everything the same, as usual. I need to toughen up myself, seriously. I guess i'll be back after EOYS, jiayou everyone.!

If only you'd realise that the person im refering to is you.
But, you will never know..

2008-08-08T21:54:00.004+08:00

okay, today was a miraculous day.
firstly, i woke up, AUTOMATICALLY, at 5am sharp to meet reis to attend X-country later.
secondly, i walked almost thruout the whole journey for X-country, and im still inside the top 100 ahaha=.=

okay, after X-country, went out with the usual cool peeps. Jingjie, Rino, Raymond, Reis, Qiyong, Tohwei, Bryan, Zhanghong, Damien, Junming, Nicholas, Chengsheng.
We went to leisure park, on our way there, we saw yengfai and yijue. they joined us together with junhong(from their class de also).
Things went quite smoothly, bought 17 tickets, including one for rachellamtohwei ahaha. We caught the movie 'Money not enough 2' =)
Okay, the movie only include abit of laughing and touching moments, while the rest are kinda craps-.- I liked the part, "O-Bei-Som" haha! That was super funny larhs, and one more whereby the irritating mother kept asking the same ques all over again. I laughed until i was inches off my seat {stomach cramp, oh-no! haha!} . We went to the same RESTAURANT, saw the same person haha! A smiley face on the receipt hehe, and a smile(: We went bowling after that and Rino was addicted to it too~!
haha, i bet we're all gna enjoy our life aft EOY for there are more than enough programmes planned ahead:D

It was the first time we chatted so early in the morning, and im v.happy that we chatted so nicely:]

The end.

2008-08-07T17:50:00.002+08:00

i was listening to this song. i cried.. it was the song which showed me the images of her, the fun times we had, the chats which cheered me up. sometimes i wonder, if i shld give her my blessings or what, but i know its impossible, bcoz i know who the target is. maybe, its her choice. i cant do anything for her to help her, im really so helpless that maybe, one day when she realised that there's another guy still waiting for her, only then will we be able to be back to kor and mei de status, and also talk about all those zhou family and the otahs, and even those morning calls...

2008-07-18T16:59:00.003+08:00

This time round, i supposed, i will look forward, and not go back again.
不管我有多么不舍得，我选择了 - 放弃你.
The perfect and wonderful memories we had, shall stay with me, forever.
Goodbye,
~~我爱你<3~~

直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个
美好风景　只是他早已离去
直到你想通　他早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话

你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他

所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔
直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个

美好风景　只是他早已离去
直到你想通　他早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔

你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔

2008-07-15T21:00:00.007+08:00

你，真的回来了吗？
这真的是之前与我共享欢乐的你吗？
这是不是一场梦？
还是老天又要捉弄我多一次？
我等了这么久.. 真的让我等到了吗....？
以前，我每天都在想着你，
盼望着有一天，我们能回到过去那样，
一起读书，一起聊天，一起说笑..

2008-07-15T21:00:00.001+08:00

你，真的回来了吗？

2008-07-12T10:55:00.007+08:00

Firstly, im rly disappointed on what one of my meis had done. She, really disappoint me.
Next, to one of my fren out there, you will be alrightz. There's always frenz around you heee(:
Lastly, to conclude, it is all about this fucking bastard's doing which result in such ending, that fucktard.

hmms. I feel that, my life really goes thru alot of ups and down and its -> Downz > Ups -.- Everyone change y'know, and everything change, be it in split seconds or over a long period of time. When one changes, the closest to him/her will be the one getting hurt most as there's a saying goes : " What hurts the most, is being so close "

I feel really close to you over this period of time, the phone calls to confide in you, the family, the food, evrything. I wish i could talk to you upon this, but i find that reality is cruel, that bastard has once again tarnish the girls who are either close or who i loved. I dont know how to face you, i'll just let nature takes its own course for i believe, thngs will return to its original state.

I really hope everyone can cheer up, and anyone who wna go out or sth can call me anytime, except this bastard _|_
Im available for most of the time hahhaa^^ okay. Sort of looking forward to National Day, becos that is gonna be a long hol i suppose. I dont really have interest in any games, just wanna return to see my uncle zhou everyday haha=)

Alrights. Im dedicating this song by Mariah Carey to - This mei of mine, my fren{in th 2nd paragraph}, and last but not least, myself.

"Bye Bye"

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

2008-07-01T20:45:00.005+08:00

Let me take it or perhaps,
treat it that,
you went there,
met with some mishaps,
and never came back.

Maybe,
i'd feel better this way.

The 286 days of love i felt, 20.09.2007 - 01.07.2008
{I will never forget you, the one who made a difference in my life. Thankyou=]}

2008-06-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

it's yet, another lonely friday.

2008-06-26T20:04:00.004+08:00

hi.
I did community service today and i felt a really great sense of satisfaction(:
The uncles and aunties there really deserve our pity and i'm glad i did sth for them today hehheh=)
Argh.! Turkey lost, Holland already eliminated. Now im so gonna support Spain man.! But Arshavin and Schweinsteiger rocks leys sianz =.=

我已经尽力去埋醉自己了，但我还是觉得好痛苦。
我听了无数的开导，可最终，我还是败给了我自己。
我好想，好想你.
但批次之间的陌生，让我感到好可怕。
我每次都责怪自己有多傻..
如果当时我珍惜每一刻每一秒..
也许，我只说也许，这段故事可能就不会这样结束了...

2008-06-12T05:02:00.002+08:00

Okay, i guessed, i'll spend my time enjoying overseas and come back a totally changed person haha. To my cool guy-frenz - Jingjie, Rino, Weijie, Raymond, Reis, Tohwei, Lowell and gal-frenz - Shiqin, Joanna, Marilyn, Ice Kachang.
Thank you for being with me for the past 6 mths, willing to listen to my stuffs, thankyou(:
Anyone needs help, just call me, text me. I'll be ready to help your haha=) Treasure the ones you loved, dont ask for more but be satisfied with what you have alrightz.?=] I hope nothing impt happened during my time away and i'll get you peeps some stuffs haha(: Bon voyage to myself=}

2008-06-11T15:15:00.003+08:00

Im here dedicating a post to mysuperduperfunnydeJIE (:

alright, maybe you feel you're being isolated because you felt everyone's against you, but dont feel this way kaykay.!^_^ There maybe some people who are not against u, and there maybe some people supporting you=D Even if theres, really no one, there are still your classmates right? and your DI here =) Anything just call me, i hope i can lend you my listening ears okay? hehheh.!

2008-06-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

If the only reason I was born,
was so I could meet you,
do you think I'll be able to change everything?

2008-06-06T15:09:00.000+08:00

it just aint the same anymore.

2008-06-03T02:29:00.001+08:00

Just thought of you for the whole of today out of the blue.
I guess,
i really miss you.

2008-05-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

A day out with reis, bryan, nicholas and tohwei. Met up with Rino at DTE to catch a movie but only left congkak. THEN there's one guy(you make a guess) among us, who is afraid of watching ghost movie! HAHA! okay. No movies, so we went to have Kfc and caught a glimpse of Grace's sighting but she was trying to avoid. aww, nvmind HAHA(: Tried going to bowling but to no avail, reason being -> no lanes! z_z okay, went arcade after that and raced daytona and won once only, pathetic man =.= after that jiu go home lo. Had dinner with Reis and bought a charm xD secret :x

today is the happiest day i had since the start of school this year! I just feel it that way so yeah, thats it (:

我真的有对你说不完的话，但是我确实不知道该如何开始.

2008-05-13T22:13:00.004+08:00

okay, got back my results.

Targeted results :

Eng : B3
Chi : B3
A Maths : A1
E Maths : A1
Physics : B3
Chemistry : A1
Pure Geog : A1
Combined Humanities : B3

Actual results :

Eng : C6
Chi : B4
A Maths : A2
E Maths : A1
Physics : B4
Chemistry : B3
Pure Geog : C5
Combined Humanities : D7{CMI}

felt so bad after getting the results. haiz, cmi ler..
I was resting after playing soccer and lying on the ledge of the street court while listening to this song, looking at the clear bright sky, thinking of the days in chongqing. i was hoping i could return to chongqing to visit my friends, and mainly, restart everything which i did =(
If only,
if only,
if only....
maybe its just my pure imagination or hallucination.
maybe i could forget everything.
but, the image of tat first little smile of yours,
made it tough for me to forget you.
Why?
why,
why....
Guilty-ness filled me.
If i had not start all these,
time would not have been wasted in the past few months.
Both our results might have gotten better,
and maybe, you will feel happier without knowing what i feel for you.

2008-05-03T17:24:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.! back to blogging again(:

hmm.. had the sudden urge to watch "Ah Long Pte Ltd" again haha. so, i went to find the sound tracks from the movie and put here lo.
Still rmb all these songs? the movie which we watched and i was darn late haha. Total ownage at daytona=)
aye, 3 more papers to go, and im going to do the stuffs which is real time consuming.
see you guyz.(:

2008-04-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

I may be smiling on the outside of me,

but inside myself, i know im struggling. real hard.

i've been thinking what if that day had arrived sooner then expected.

i still have a lot of stuff to tell you, to share..

but, everything just seem to be coming to an end.

wloves,
Wei Seng ;

2008-04-13T10:28:00.004+08:00

You promise you'd go with me,
but you went into the place with another guy instead, alone.
Since promises are meant to be broken,
i'll let it be broken then.
The Promise is equivalent to my Heart.
You broke the promise,
and so is my heart.
I wonder why i cry so long and so much over this matter,
but maybe bcoz deep inside my heart, it aches alot.. When i cant imagine, wht the two of you were doing inside.

Stop and Stare, a song which seems to have some kind of connection betwn me and a girl, and i guess i'll nvr know what is it.

2008-04-03T22:59:00.003+08:00

I forgot,

My role has changed.

2008-04-02T22:28:00.003+08:00

You may doubt whatever i said from now cos i guessed, i haf alrdy lost my credibility. You really, for once believe me, you did help me alot, both physically and mentally. You know how you've helped me in gaining the confidence and perseverance i lacked..? Everytime i faced difficulties in my work, you & weijie will always be willing to help me & still rmbed every movies we watched. I knew i asked alot of questions regarding the content of the movies, but you always explained them and still rmb "Sky of Love" de movie? We crapped about predicting what the next scene will show about Mika and which guy or whatever haha=) Robot bra, Camel or Sally, sorry.

From the start, i really tried to help you ppl patched becos i really hope to see your going out as a clique again. Although i know you are 99.99999 % sure that you are not going to patch or sth, I still hope that there will be one day when the 0.00001 % will happen.

My friend, have faith in my words, i really regard you as my very close fren, and maybe even still, a benefactor. I hope we are still frenz, can we?

2008-03-30T00:34:00.005+08:00

i felt your helpless-ness. i just dont hope to see you this way, so im going to give you moral support (: I found my new role, and i hope i wont be doing anymore of those community service haha :x

Everything seems to be coming to an end,
and when you're gone,
i will take my leave.

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Yi Xuan : heyhey! xiaomeimei xD aiya, observe ppl where got fun? i feel so sian can? D: almost fell asleep lahh~_~
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Ferica : hey, you think you cute arh? haha~ when did i ever insult sia D:
Yi Fan : haha, dont tell you =P anw, really sorry about friday. In the end, i went home after lunch lah =/
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Cheryl : You cheryl khaw? haha, state ur surname nxt time pls=/ hmm, yea. i know, and im finding the smiles which has just disappeared from my expressions' category recently x__X

2008-03-14T22:36:00.003+08:00

hey!today was great!Sorry yulya and tw for being late, my mistake kay?=/

we guys eventually met up at 2pm at orchard mrt. I saw justice bao's face on tw's head. We went Wisma to repair Yi Xuan's fone. Her fone was way !@#$%^&*()! xD The lady at the counter was like " why is your SIM card so wet?!" HAHA. okay.

Phone cannot repair due to the cost so we went to "Food Republic" to had lunch, although only tw makan. After that went to a lady's shop where yulya and yixuan went to buy clothes. Yi xuan bought clothes only, yulya was the "accomplice" heehe(: They took bloody long time to buy lah, so me and tw went to buy mcflurry xD. aww, the point system for rewards to members of mac is ending at 31st May 08 and the points can only redeem till 11th April 08. Aye, sadded. No more free 30 nuggets to exchange for liao-.-

We went to find mabel that JOKER! LOL! Her way of talking, actions and everything was bloody hell !@#$%^&*()! farni larh=/ We went to where she work, Burger King in cine and Yi xuan ate some stuff there. We sat down for very long before deciding to go up and catch a movie. Zzz In the end we catch nothing, only manage to bet with Yixuan on what an uncle was gonna do next. This guy, bought popcorns and drink. Sat outside cinema and eat eat eat... I said he will go in and catch a show, Yi xuan says he just bought popcorn to eat only(where the hell will ppl buy cinema popcorns eat outside cinema. Yes, those who are reading this line, you're right. Yixuan will be the only one. haha) I won the bet in the end, the uncle went into the cinema with another uncle hehe=p

We, exclude yixuan and tw, were bored although they could sit outside the E-Zone and observe what ppl does. *sigh* No movie so we go ler lor. On the way to Somerset MRT, Yi Xuan tio SAI! BIRD SAI! MWAHAHAHA! she was so "lucky" indeed. AND THE FUNNY THING WAS HER FIRST REACTION! HER FIRST REACTION, WENT TO WIPE THE SHIT ON TOHWEI'S SHIRT(because he was standing next to her) hahahah! okay. reached the mrt, and we see yulya off to dhoby ghaut and "bounced" Marina Bay. Sad luh, day ended so fast =( We went hougang to eat. I makan then go home ler.

Reached home 7.30 and got ready for tuition. Jerry was funny man! His body was fucking XXXXLARGE LAR! KNS. go thailand a few days nia, fat like pig like that lol:x
okay. then after tuition Im here.

Champions Leagus Quarter Final Draw
Arsenal v.s Liverpool

Fenerbahce v.s Chelsea

Roma v.s Man Utd

Schalke 04 v.s Barcelona

aye, sian lah, tot Man Utd can play against Schalke 04 or Fenerbahce larh zzZ.

My story starts here
One day, a guy called "w" went out with his friend "x" to orchard. Friend "x" was meeting his two gal-frens and "w" was free and had basically nothing to do so he follow suit. Guy "w" and "x" met "x"'s frens, Gal "a" & "b". "a" was small in size, whereas "b" was large in size...

Story to be continued..

signin' off,
WeiSeng ;

2008-03-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

heyhey! i find myslf updating regularly tis days uh, but its a good sign isnt it(:

It was joyce and Shiyong's bday today heh(: Met with Tohwei at my house then Lowell at P.S. to buy pressie. Decided to hop into arcade to have a round or two of daytona with Tohwei(he challenged me leh-.-).

First, we saw Sherina, Qianyun, Jolene, Shiyong, Yinghui, Florence, Mei Xuan, Rui Shan, Rui Jing(woots, they got the same 2nd name hahas:/), He Nian and Zu Xiang. I drunmmed, drove and threw plus smashed-.- on different games of course. hahas. hmm. Jolene seems to have some grudge with that danceboard uh, stamp on it with elephant legs' strength D: It was sent for repairing right aft that. kiddin' (:
Qian Yun is a pro. She totally own the dance and smashing of the button thingy =/ Lowell also not bad lah, go challenge Jolene, an amateur on the dance and can lose to her despite claiming that he is good at it. Shiyong and Sherina tag-team Bball champ-.- I tag with Tohwei/ Lowell still can lose to them sia. Total ownage and we are called the noobs -.-

Sorry to Yinghui and Shiyong on your presents D: i bought it alrdy but didnt know will so lucky to see ur there lahh hahas:/ p.s.
Went to Kbox at Marina Square to meet up with another bunch of ppl. Jing Jie, Joyce, Yi Sheng, Zhang Hong, Bryan, Damien and Qiyong the noob. Rock on lar ppl. K-ing songs were so freaking fun can. I displayed my talented singing skills in front of your. You were so lucky lar dudes(:

I sang like non-stop till the very end. In between, celebrated Joyce's bday by singing bday song and such. Qiyong's singing "rocks" man. Your voice were greattttt-.- Lowell, your voice is real good lar. So envious can D: hahah. hmm, before Yi Sheng left, she sang some songs she wanted and just when she was about to leave, she passed the mike to Zhang Hong by throwing across the glass table and it hit.. a glass cup and broke it. We made use of the container of the cake. We threw the broken glass cup in and sneaked it out right after the singing session ends HAHAHA. phew lahh*_*

We went to play pool after that while waiting for joyce and jingjie for dinner. Zhang Hong and i, when we tagteam, we are imba kia haahah=D We own Tohwei-Lowell, Tohwei-Qiyong & Lowell-Qiyong hahah. Final, Eric v.s Zhang Hong. I lost by a fucking ball which was cm(s) away from rolling into that hole.

Now we all no money liao so Zhang Hong, Damien, Qiyong, Tohwei, Lowell and i went to food court to eat. Talked alot of stuff there and they are great entertainers man haha. When we were about to leave, it was around 9.30pm. Thanks to that bangalah Qiyong, misled us to IT fair then to Suntec Tower. We learnt sth today and that is, nvr ever let Qiyong lead the way.

And here, im home. at 11.30pm. It was a great day, with you ppl just that some irritating sightings and news spoiled my day. Anyway, more of such outings if there is(:

signin' off,
WeiSeng ;

2008-03-08T12:36:00.009+08:00

Im back~ I find this vid rather interesting and so, i've decided to upload it into my comp and publish it here =) Feel free to pause the song on my blog while u watch this vid &you guys have seen it on tv too:/

Mumbai Dah, India! :] Oh and not forgetting, SA Spurs & LA Lakers rulez~
signin' off,
WeiSeng ;

2008-03-07T19:08:00.003+08:00

hey dudes out there! haha. ben3 shao4 ye2 is here to update my blog-.-

Firstly, i want to apologize to ruijing for playing too rough at the street there yeah?i wasnt really in a good mood that day, but shldnt played that way too.. sorry:/

Next, alot of stuff happen tis week and i think i cocked up my Geog and Physics paper. My language papers arent any better though zzZ But still, i hope to pass these papers luhh *sigh*

Lastly, Happy Birthday to Yun Han, Shi Yong, Joyce Sam and Dillian whose birthdays all falls on 9th March and YingHui, 11th March (: Enjoy your bday outings if you had one with your frens/family heh (:

Its Friday alr, and still there's no news of you. I guess you may have forgotten about this thingy alrdy bahh but still, enjoy your March hols which you have been looking extremely to[=

Its time to take a break from all the paperworks and the increasing-wisdom-books & holidays, here i come :DD

signin' off,
WeiSeng ;

2008-03-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

guilty-ness
got the better of me.

Sorry.

2008-02-26T20:34:00.002+08:00

it wont be appropriate if i tell a confidante, but i cant find any close frenz to tell tis matter to now. aye, i really want to find someone and share tis matter, who will?aye...

okay, joanna, you're gna be back tmr uh haha. dont gnd okay, no more entertainment ler D: &someone nids you heh(: speedy recovery yeah?:D

2008-02-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

hereby, i would like to pronounce that i give up and i want to state clearly that its not because i lost my feelings but for some personal reasons. I will not take blame on anyone, even myself because thats hard to avoid. I did this for both yours, and my, benefits. I love you.

Gave up on 17th February 2008 2.18am

joanna, you can gnd + btw alr hahahs. my vday pressie ehs, dont forget hor, no chopper plz=). i bought you one vday present too. Say thankyou~ -.- If you forget to bring it then im so gna ask you to btw!><
Weijie, go watch P.S I Love You lehhhh. Joanna wants more ppl to go....

2008-02-08T04:19:00.001+08:00

It seems ages, since we last ended our conversation in the way where both of us wanted(: Im still thinking about the day when you are leaving to study abroad, whereby i will really cry. Going abroad is definitely good for you, but i have this selfish intention ----- I want you to stay='( I hope that day, will never, ever. come. But if the day still comes, you must, no matter by what, inform me and im definitely gonna be there to send you off at the airport. haiz. mygosh, tears are alr rolling down my cheeks.. dont forget about my existance when you are abroad and i guess, i'll miss you.

♥ To the special one who i have been loving whole-heartedly all the while.

2008-02-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

Im shou-sui-ing in progress now..haiz, alone ehs=/
alritez.. 长话短说,
Firstly, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2008=DD Had loads of fun at Grandmother house, heh(:
The food were not as bad as i expected, and alot of the people changed=/ One of my cousin became kinda pretty ehs haha=X then chatted with melvin and my sis while we watched that crap show from 8pm to 10pm on chnl 8-.- We kept playing with our youngest cousin of all, Breydan(if i didnt spell wrong =/ ) He is only 1 and a half yr old, like omgosh? kinda intelligent to be able to do sth he like at his age and he dont cry alot like other babies do~! I guess he will grow up being an indepenent and intelligent boy=) After all the stuffs, Melvin's parents sent us back home like within 5 mins from my grandparents house larhs. lol.
Pei Rong, i very long nvr chat with u liao ehs. And i did that TODAY~!HAHA! was kinda shock when u told me "1 more yr to NC16 shows" & I was stunned when u said "or 6 more years to R21.." didnt know you think this way too=X no offence arh heh=D but she very nice lah, she conference with her frenz to shou sui and also kept me awake by msging lor - thankyew~(:
Christopher Lee.... zzZ you say i can call you and chat de lehs.. then now lehs? u snoring liao lor. win liao lor. -.- hahaha. joking lah, you slp bah, cos u had been slping late recently & faster decide date lehz, i want watch "Ah Long pte ltd" and "CJ7" leh!! nvm, i shall "shou" the extras "sui"for you, till about 5am bah [ im so nice rightz?~.~ ]
hmm, dont pangseh me like this ever again kayy..? i was looking so forward to tonight then what you gave me was juz "I no mood to shou.. sorry.. I slping alr". I really dont want and dont wish to hear anymore of these ler =( i was really disappointed yet i do not know how to express it to you.. haiz. just.. no more of these ler bah.. btw, Happy Birthday Ferica &&my confidante aka my MEI, yifan~!(:

Now, i would like to dedicate the song "Way Back Into Love" to you, hoping that you will know how to find a way back into love one day alrightz?=)

2008-02-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

just realised that this will gna be my 55th post hahas. hmm. i just want this phrase to get into my head -> " there's always ups and downs in life, and so, even if im just on the down side, i must still let the day past by, and with the broadest smile possible(: " haiz. basically, i haf nth much to say, life is boring, no soccer, filled with exams, not enough rest and the list is still going on.. *sigh* maybe i should really relax myself someday.

你是一个可以帮我微笑的女生，

所以每当只要和你说话聊天，

我已经感到满意了。

但是，当你走的那一天，

我不知道，我以后的日子，

会是光明的，还是灰暗的...

2008-01-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

I cant do it. I will not only hurt you by talking like tat, but it hurts me too. I tried to reduce our chats & in the end, the one who is actually suffering,
is myself.

I promise, i will not give you such a cold shoulder ANYMORE~ I hate myself for doing so actually.

Everything was alright today, learnt how to complete RUBIX CUBE as taught by our #10 RaYNaLDo=) Then, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SOCCER MATE, LIN KUANI went to the bench outside 3GR to celebrate Lin Kuan's birthday, although i was some what being out-casted=/ BUT I KNOW Lin Kuan will never forget me! He gave me a piece of the cake too! thx bro, heh(:

I gave her the present i bought yesterday, a cute little hp pouch=D Hope you like it uhh, =/ I should be lunching with you outside and sending you home by late afternoon, but.. your - maths - homework....... zzZ~ It's alright though, cause i still get the chance to teach you and talk to you, heh:D In the end, we went back at around 6.15pm~.~" I didnt know that you were so cute with such low IQ in the past larhs, hahaha =X Thanks for the day;D

I really want to say : I really treasure the times with you alone & its not that i do not want to talk, but i am JUST too glad and happy to believe that all these things are actually happening beyond what i have imagined that it could reach! Now, i only want to dedicate this short little song, which Cui Lin sent to me today. It is the way i feel as every day passes by.. If you managed to read my blog, do enjoy the song~ and lastly, sorry):

2008-01-22T18:02:00.000+08:00

i felt very weak all over me this morning,

yet i came to sch for one reason.

and it is..

just to see you[=

very glad to see that you are feeling much better~

and i guess..

its time we stopped talking on the phone

you wanted to tell,

but u dare not..

and that is why,

im doing you this favour

You nid not tell me anything..

you have your life,

and i have mine

thus, i hope that..

you really feel better this way=)

I am really confused at the moment.. Should i, continue carrying this mask of mine on my face..? Or is it time to take it off. If i really do so, many things revolving around me will be changed, and it will be a bad one.

Should i, or should i not..?

2008-01-13T15:08:00.000+08:00

Its such a tiring wkend.

So many stuffs to do ,

but at least i caught a glimpse on the match between -

Man Utd v.s. Newcastle.

6-0 was the scoreline.

Ronaldo hat-trick ,

along with a goal by Ferdinand

and a brace by Tevez=)

If you love me as I love you ,

nothing but death can part us two.

2008-01-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY! and im very GLAD to have my friends to celebrate with me. Firstly, early in the morning, Yifan, Waiis, Cheryl, Sally, Zeguang came to celebrate my bday with a cake. Despite that its only one small piece, but the sincerity counts=) Afternoon, played soccer and had loads of fun(: Toh Wei, Jordan, Reis, Raymond, Lowell and the cheebai Cheng Sheng[ _|_ ] wtf hahhas. He guailan kia, force me go home when i don wana to hahas.
In the evening, went to East Coast Park to have a chat with you, felt surprised and guilty at the same time when you agreed to go with me. You are busy, yet you came cause it was my birthday, but you should have not come. You havent finish your assignments that was gonna be handed tomorrow, and you still came. It only makes me more guilty.. but nevertheless, today was the first time we chatted so much, and it was the first time that i really feel that im getting to know you better. I just hope we can stay on like this forever and ever, or even, go further than this as i rly hope to gain a chance from you. Hope you understand what i mean and seriously & sincerely, Thank You(:

This is the best birthday in my 15 years of life & i really thank you for celebrating it with me:D 20092007 - 08012008(:

2007-12-26T11:23:00.000+08:00

Secondary school BBQ Details[updated]!!:

Date - 27th December 2007
Venue - East Coast Park, AREA C, PIT 7
Time - 4.30pm - 11pm
Cost - at most $12(depending on the no. of ppl coming)
People - Currently targetting 34 xD
Food Organiser - Sokmin, Yanyun, Zhangxin, Irene
People Organiser - Yifan

Down with severe flu again. thx to Charlotte's doggs..
Had a great X'mas eve, as well as X'mas day at Charlotte's hse^^
Saw my very very good fren, Jacky and the long awaited "return" of Binu xD
Had a very nasty time in the middle of the night and only slpt at 7+am till 9am.
Finally played Dota! lols.
Ordered Mac Delivery for lunch. [Kajie and Jerry, u two still owe me $5 each]=.=
Left for home. Had a very wonderful time there~:D
To Charlotte: We booked that top room at level 3 nxt yr liao hor! X'mas eve=)

~月台西窗许下含蓄的誓言
三生三世还要来重圆
月老在多年前缠了红线
盟约早已订在那一年

2007-12-20T01:13:00.001+08:00

wakaka! i juz love A maths tuition so muuccccchhh!xP chalet was fun. although we did so many different stuffs.
We
Lie,
We
Cheat,
We
Steal! xD

im just joking arnd. That was the quote by the Before-Death Great Wrestler, Eddie Guerrero. Chalet was 2 days and 1 night, but we still enjoyed it alot! The afternoon was so bored that we all stayed in the room to watch tv, although we managed to catch the "Star Awards 2007"! We rented bicycles overnight and left for the nearby Kopitiam for the Liverpool versus Manchester United match despite the fact that Kajie, YunZhun and i pangsehed Jomanda & Khaifang. hahas. We got our comeuppance not long after the match. We went back to the chalet, and we were locked outside by the two of them. gosh. we were so restless alrdy and they left us with no choice but to phone the housekeeping people to come over and open the door for us. Later in the night, we had more "customers"! Jerry and his dad came, followed by the Burger TIM! hehs. We went out to White sands 7-eleven after abandoning our plans of going to tampines safra. On our way to the 7-eleven, while Kajie and i were cycling, met a bunch of hooligans and they kp us like they got no mother like tat. We were just riding our bikes wht. Didnt bothered bout their comments as we continued our way tehre. We bought cup noodles and went back chalet to bathe first for im dripping wet. Then, juz before Cheers close, Burger Tim and i went to buy some breads(the ones wit no taste. seriously darn plain those kind) and went back to play two games recommended by Timothy and Jerry each. We played both games till we were all stuffed up with the idiotic breads. At one part of the game where after level five, you will receive ur forfeit. I was at level 5, Kajie, Yunzhun and Khaifang too. Then Jerry was still level 3. The game was like this.
The person who is higher level must try to trick the person of lower level to reply him(the higher level one). Just before the cards were put down(in order to see who nid to gain a level for putting the cards down last), Yunzhun was trying to trick Jerry into replying. He said "来Level 5 la. 我让你做总统 la. 总统最大！"
Just when he said that "总统最大", Kajie put down the card and everyone put the cards down except him and thus, he received his forfeit(eating 1 whole loaf of that disgusting bread) xD. He was given a nickname after that, 面包总统 hahahah!
The next day, we went to lan to play CS and Dota. okayy. Then we went kajie's house. I borrowed a few games. I accompanied Yunzhun to buy his games before returning home. I felt like i had nt slpt for 3-4 days. hahs. and i slept.
Thats all about my chalet stuffs.

Now, coming up next, Primary & Secondary BBQs.

Primary school BBQ Details:
Date - ???
Venue - East Coast Park
Time - most probably 4.30pm till 11pm
Cost - at most $12(depending on the no. of ppl coming)
People - Currently targetting 20;D
Food Organiser - Jomanda, Jerry, Timothy, Khaifang
People Organiser - Weiseng , Yunzhun

Secondary school BBQ Details:
Date - 27th December 2007
Venue - East Coast Park
Time - most probably 5pm till 11pm
Cost - at most $12(depending on the no. of ppl coming)
People - Currently targetting 34 xD
Food Organiser - Sokmin, Yanyun, Zhangxin, Irene
People Organiser - Yifan

thats about all. Class allocation details :
3BN:
-Jennifer
-Marc
-Jasline
-Sheryl
-Sze Eng
-Zhang Xin

3CR:
-Le Qin
-Isabel
-Cheryl
-Sok Min
-Chong Jin
-Evelyn

3DL:
-Jia Xin
-Karen
-Limay
-Jin Kim

3EP:
-Venice
-Zi Hui

3FG:
no one

3GR:
-Irene
-Yi Fan
-Lin Kuan
-Bao Yi
-Yan Yun
-Kristal
-Xue Cen

3HM:
-Sally
-Ze Guang

3IT<3:
-Esther
-ME!!!
-Tan Yang
-Nicholas

3JT:
no one

3LY:
-Wei Tong

3MD:
no one

3RP:
no one

Hopes that this will help you people in knowing where the BN-ers haf gone to(:

2007-12-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

Its really unexpected. really.. She is juz so nice, & has since left. I hope everything is alright for u, pal. You always cheered us up when we frenz are feeling low, and this should be the first time when i see u in this state. Everything will be fine after this, pick yourself up and continue your journey. You had a bright future ahead of you, dude:D

Dear Jacky, i really miss u like ****! LOL. hmm, just kidding ehs hahs. but, i really miss you, same goes to yunzhun. Why did u move house?? *sigh* If only u had stayed near us like u used to, and we can have fun anytime we like. You are one of the few i can confine my problems to leh, and i hope you have not forgotten one of your best pals in primary school;) Still remember the fight..?Which led to us becoming best of friends later on in that year, but its a pity we did not go to the same school. Really hope to see you around soon, dude & chalet wont be as fun without you man!

I am over the moon! You are finally, back! But at the same time, you are off to ur hometown again.. *sigh* You came back for merely a few days & *poof* , you are off to another country. I have no chance to send you my personal invitation on X'mas day. You wouldnt be back by then so, im nt carrying much hope. Just a reminder, It's the 42nd day today already!

Life have been pretty meaningless for me during the past few days. Basically stuffed with my homeworks despite the fact that December holidays should be use for enjoying and preparing for "No Life" in the Secondary Three year.

*"No Life" - N0 time to play de LIFE

Tags REPLIES :D

Jacky : I miss you loads, brother!=/
Cheryl : Hahas. I will get it written right away alrights:D
Waiis : YUP! DIGIMON ADVENTURE!! Its just TOO childish for me to regain my childhood memories !! xD
Sally : wthell. what PPG sia. so lame..
Erin : I never work lerh lehs. heh. hmm. I emo guy ahh? hmmm. You should just say im just simply too NICE le xD
Zeguang : hmm. i updated ler! ehs.. i link another day can? lols. nt enough time ehs. paisehpaiseh=/
Grace : hmmm. you from 2 Grace de Grace ah ahahha! Grace *square* lols. x]
jt : mama punek.. put jt u think i dono who u are ah-___-" si Jordan Tan~ you want know why u sucks? " You suck for me, I TELL YOU" xDD
Ken : what my mother?._. hahas. going for the chalet held on this sunday? I'll message you the details soon. I'll link you another day together with my friend okayy? ahhas. thanks ah=D

2007-10-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

it was the last day we had together today,

we are separating frm nw on &i will miss you peeps for sure!

hope you people wudnt forget me &the times we had during the precious 2 yrs together!

&lastly, tis are some of the things i would like to say to some of them..

LINKUAN

all the while, you've been my closest soul mate, ever since the orientation camp we had during sec 1. you are a great guy, with your charismatic character & all your jokes! still rmb tat you are the one who get everyone involve and enthu about sec1 life with your guts to do things=) even though u are very vulgar, i appeared to haf fun chatting wit u even with ur vulgarities included in the conversation=/ we chatted alot of secret stuffs too &u even taught me some techniques=X hahs. we are going in different directions and persuing different things from now on &hereby, i would sincerely thank you, for all the things u guided and taught me, pal!

ZEGUANG

you are one who always share the same thoughts as me, maybe its due to the closeness in birthdate?hahas. despite all the contradictions and conflicts we had during the times we played and chatted together, i still rmb sharing same fun times together. like, going to plaza sing to watch movie?vivo to help me..! u hav always been the one who help boosted my confidence! &u tend to help me out when facing some difficulties.w/o ur presense, i guess i wont be the weiseng here! fren, thx for everything, including helping me for my eoys. even we wun be in the same klaz nxt yr, i still hope tat we can haf those fun times together!=D

BAOYI

hey gal! u are the first gal who i interacted with!:Dthanks for helping me with my work during sec 1! u are a very nice gal, the one who helped me do corrections and stuffs when i was so damn tired and sleeping in class;) thx for the letter which u gave me, really honoured to haf received it. i hope things will go well for u in the future, and i promise u to fulfil with the things i didnt haf as stated in ur letter! thx & all e best alritez?

YIFAN

yo!mei! APPLE TREE!hahas! thanks for being such a nice friend & mei, and a person i could confine my troubles to! even if it seems tat u are threatening me with ur psp by decreasing my playing time if i eva said an f*** word, i know u did it for my own good. yeah, u tried to control the vulgarities i said. thx alot mei! will nvr forget wat u did to help me, thx for comforting me the other day, yea?:D and i won't forget the times we had! dont even noe if we will get to the same class, but hope u will come to the combination im going, so tat i can di siao u with ur APPLE! HAHAS!stay happy always kay?don be so emo ler. take care & lastly, all e best for you~;D

YANYUN

hey there!same brain de:) haha,i guess its MR & MRS SMITH who pulled us closer by tat survey on wat brain we are, yea? hahs. hmm. you appeared dao on the outside of u(mayb its due to the colour o.0?)xD but i haf nvr once tried being RACIST kay? hahas =X you are a nice dudette, corrected alot of my mistakes on eng grammar uh..=/ still rmb sec 1, when u cried over so many many guyyyss... then i still haf to crap some jokes to make u smile.. want some tissues? hahs. you look nice by wearing tat smile of yours on ur face more frequently, &u will soon get all ur wishes, an assurance alrite?all e best for u in future cos wudnt haf the chance to crap arnd wit u anymore. gal, take care alritez?[=

SZE ENG

you!the one who lent me slam dunk discs! hahas! my favourite anime you know?! thx! still rmb my first project in sec sku.. still gotta come so far to ur hse! & furthermore, i LOST my way-___- thx for the hist hw u lent me to copy lols. lazy do=/ buttttttt. rly thx for the things u had helped me through out my sec 2 journey..all e best~;)

SALLY

one of my meis! you are juzz sooo weird! ROBOT BRA! HAHAS x= your thinking is sooo soooo mature tat i don even understand sometimes what u are toking about-.- but, i rmb accidentally throwing tat ball onto ur face & u hit me so hard 3 times on my back! we are getting into same combine rite?i will haf plenty of times to take my revenge le muahahhaha! but nevertheless, i hope u will stay simple, yet happy always kay?dont think too much especially bout ur wat migration thingy alrite?take care always~

Cheryl

Last, but not least, Ms Khaw-.- hmm. you are nice, smart and just full of craps :O hahs. always sleep in class de sia, then sms your JUSTIN horh xD you lehs, a great athlete, one of the fast-running gals i eva seen, tgt wit waiis, yunita and zihui ahhas. you now co rite? quit lah! join tracks, then even though nxt yr different class, still can see you on the runner tracks during the combined sports meet mah. hahs. aiya, sian. you go triple liao. if u come physics-chem ah, im sure gna laugh alot in class de lor. no entertainment value in class liao. hope got replacement?hahs. no luh. u wont be replaced lah. you, will always be you. And never forget to keep smiling cos u looked very friendly when you smile:D dont worry luh. You, will be missed(:

loads & loads of apologies to the ones whom i have not mentioned due to my limited resting hours aft my work but i really want to shout out loud,

2BENEVOLENCE ' 07 foreva! in the bn-ers heart!
& don forget our BENEVOLENCE SPIRIT, & me!Gu4i l4N Is mY StyL3!

2007-10-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

thinking about wat she(cant reveal) said, mayb she was right. i don think we were out for each other.. a form of best fwen mayb suitable instead? ahhh. tired of thinking tis. juz blog bout today.. sku per normal? broke the "SHIP" for the performance xD tio detention! wtf? bt didnt go. juz pon. who ask tat teacher mfknnccb lols. then played soccer. aiya, totally rusty since touching the ball a few months ago before playing last wk and tis wk(once each). no FINISHING, POOR FIRST TOUCH, SUCK DRIBBLING, bt i got my speed back! lols. overall, my performance 1.5/5 zzZz

u were walking behind me aft sku.. didnt realise zzz hahs. nvm luhs but sad to say, sku closing lerh. cant see u often. BUT, i promise i'll make sure i treasure tis opportunity:D

its a NEW START - a NEW BEGINNING of my journey towards your destination..

2007-10-23T19:11:00.001+08:00

my regrets, for nt treasuring wat i haf and persevering wat im doin' . whyy? juz why? the lack of perseverance led to my great drop in my results. wat cn i do?*sigh* nth but try again nxt yr? hope the same mistake doesnt occur anymore.. as for treasuring wat i haf, wat shld i do?im always like tat, take things for granted. cant i juz treat things seriously? i neglected u for some time too. aye, if im nt wrong, tis prob has led to the lost in feelings of u for me.. i dono wat i cn do nw, but as the saying goes "love is not all about being together with one another, but its about sharing the weals and woes with her & letting her wear tat lovely smile of hers everyday" and thus, i will love you till we are together, even if u juz wna remainn fwenz with me, becos... i will wait for you.

i guess tis words lift off the burden frm u & i sincerely hope tat the feelings u haf for me in the beginning hasnt fade juz yet..

2007-09-22T08:31:00.000+08:00

im here to blog about my dream so tat i wun forget about any part of it..
i shall start here..
" i was in the sku for no reason, tgt wit some of my fwens, and juz then, i saw you walking to the canteen. and i was so surprised. we chatted face to face for the first time. then my fwens were teasing us. we [put wat u want to put here], and it was my first time. but it merely last about 2-3 secs. it was very swt![= we went to amk hub? i bought her stuffs and we held each other's hands tightly, while we were walking around the shopping centre, reluctant to let go.. then was about to watch movie but.."
DAMN IT! I WOKE UP! arrggghh! juz wna say tat tis dream was so real, and i rly tot tat it was really happening to me i noe tis might nt rly happen, but i am still waiting in the forlorn hope tat i can be with you, T-rex = <3.

2007-09-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

wahhh. last post was 2 MONTHS ago! tat was awesome! some way though hahas. hmm, due to the requests of many, i hav decided to come of out "retirement" to continue blogging, bt occasionally only luhs.. hmm, basically, sku reopens, and its the final term wit my classmates, and quite unwilling to seperate even aft tat though:( bt nvm luhs. i still can see them in diff class de mah hahas. hmm, u, encourage me to blog, and here i came to blog. hahas. and im rly rly looking forward to tat day!;) &be prepared for the biggest b'day u are going to have on tat day kay?hahas. hmm. nth much to say ler, hope wat im doing nw is considered reviving it^^ hafta go ler, and juz wna say, its less than 2 MONTHS BEFORE THE TRIP TO CQEW &im soooooooo loooooookkkiiiinnnnnnnngg forward to seeing u ppl(: cyaz..

kimi ga Suki da to Sakebitai , T-rex<3

2007-07-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

my 41th post here. juz came to update due to the request of some ppl luh. things are going well since sch re-open.

youth day

went to watch transformers wit max. the robots were damn cool and it was such a touching aka funny show hahahs. hope there will be transformers 2 nxt time and juz wna say tat " GOAL 2" is out and "RUSH HOUR 3" is coming soon =DD

today, sch were as usual juz tat we were released earlier cos today de timetable is till 1.15pm! its the only wk & day when we were released at 1.15pm. sigh. aft tat, actually had tuition but had to be postponed cos tuition teacher got sth on. later on, went to play soccer wit linkuan, tohwei they all. den later theron yiyang they all came. went on to scored my one of my top 5 goals of my life later to make it 2-1. it was an "OUT" and LK pass the ball wit a slightest power de tap den i shot a swerving drive which hit the right post and deflect in. whoa, tat was the greatest moment i had tis yr hahas. all thx to LK for teaching me the technique of shooting low. after tat had our private soccer training wit linkuan and tohwei. den later got tis stalker after we had our tea break. he/she " sorta " follow me and msg me weird stuffs but i didnt see anybody. nvm. its FRIDAY! BREAK TIME HAHAHS. time for my FM2007 and Dota xDD

Lastly, juz wanna wish our b'day gal, Esther aka Fisher Tay HAPPY SWEET 14TH BIRTHDAY!!Its 07/07/07[=

2007-06-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

its my 40th post here. chalet held 2 days ago were great. at first, went escape wit zhun, amelia, felicia and ly. played almost all the games tat were open=D broke my personal record in playing consecutive games. played INVERTER and FLIPPER both consecutive 5 times! hohoho! den went back chalet to bathe and waited for kf and our B'DAY BOI JERRYs' arrival. b'day boy sponsor cakes ahahaha. bought a small cake and a big one. both cakes looked great but we wasted one when ly smashed the whole cake(small de) onto JERRY'S face hahas! b'day boi were well-prepared for tis game and he brought along a cream sprayer and sprayed everyone. the ones who went escape theme park had alrdy bathed and yet, were sprayed-.- all kenna creams sia lols. aft tat cleaned up the whole place and washed ourslves up before calling for mac delivery. ORE JIAO " treated " us.... the delivery fee-.-
aft we had all eaten we played PILLOW FIGHT. OMG, TIS GAME SUX. nb tio gang bang lar. bois against gals = 3 on 4 . we can only begin hitting the opponent when the light is off and zhun and b'day boi went to operate the lightings which means boiz vs gals = 1 v 4 __ den kenna hit on head umpteen times lar! cb-.-
went arcade aft tat and i danced, drumed, hit, threw, drove. den went to buy poker cards back to play MURDERER ahhas.
we played wit lights off and we all cant see ORE JIAO hahahhas! i seemed to be the murderer's eye sore sia, knn everytime kill me first. den when i tio detective the first time, i was like " 不爽啊? 杀我啦! " den murderer really aim me wor, but nvr die seh ahhas. den i tried tis method again when i got the victim's card nxt round but tis method is of no use la, i said tat phrase again and less than 5 secs, i was killed and tis showed tat the murderer was arnd me. hahas, i sabo-ed zhun lots of times when he was the murderer by saying, " eh, how many times u press?" den he began to get nervous and was caught. ahhas, not once but thrice lols. aft tat, some of them slpt and fel, amel, and me wnt beach.
chatted wit them bout their lives and convinced indeed, time flies. it was 6am. we started chatting at 4am, mind u-.- on the way back, went to guess who had alrdy woke up. amel guessed zhun, fel guessed jerry and i guessed none haf done so. at first when we reached back the chalet, none woke up but felicia's giant leg and big mouth woke jerry up and in a few secs time, zhun woke up. i lost lar! zzz. den ate cup noodles and slpt. woke up while i was still in my dream due to tat stuuuuuupid alarm of amel's. zzz den woke up at 11am and packed everything, got rdy to check out.
went www later on and saw tis 3 chiobu out there hahahas. den when i suggest to go shiok river, zhun and jerry, pangseh me lar nb. go hulala and the 3 chiobus were in the float while the guards calling for another 3 person. zhun despo sia. raised his hands immediately and they got the luck to sit wit them la. 1 float can tahan 6 person. 3 chiobus + zhun + jerry = 5 sia! still got one more lehx. *sob* ahahas, nvm, can only say "haf circle no shit"(try figuring out xD) den aft tat took bus home liao, sms halfway slpt.

overall(20th june-21st june) : 4.5 stars(rating)

2007-06-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

shall change my blog to transfer rumours. dun feel like updating anything bout myslf. so here's the rumours for today~

15th June 2007

Barcelona are ready to offer Eidur Gudjohnsen in a swap deal for Manchester United defender Gerard Pique. (Various)
Ex-Nou Camp youngster Pique spent last season on loan at Real Zaragoza who are expected to table a improved offer after a £7m bid was rejected. (Daily Mail)
United spending spree this summer has seen them make a £10m bid for Sampdoria striker Fabio Quagliarella, according to the player's agent. (Various)
Chelsea have rejected a bid for striker Didier Drogba from AC Milan. (Times)
Keeper Jerzy Dudek did not have his contract at Liverpool extended and will now move to Real Madrid. (Daily Mail)
The investigation into irregularities in the transfer system have cited managers involved in deals which have not been signed off by Lord Stevens, but whether the Premier League will divulge the names is in doubt. (Daily Express)
Arsenal have begun talks over the £20m transfer of striker Thierry Henry to Barcelona. (Various)
Fulham have stepped up their attempts to get West Brom duo Diomansy Kamara and Jason Koumas by offering players-plus-cash. (Various)
The third-party who has a stake in Manuel Fernandes has scuppered a possible move for the winger to the Premiership. (Daily Express)
Former French World Cup-winning skipper and ex-Juventus boss Didier Deschamps is another in the frame for the Manchester City job. (The Sun)
Charlton striker Darren Bent is a target for Liverpool and Tottenham after turning down West Ham. (Daily Mirror)
West Ham being spurned will see them now target Shaun Wright-Phillips. (Daily Mirror)
Wolves and Norwich are battling it out for Southend striker Freddy Eastwood. (Daily Mirror)
Celtic will splash out £5m to bring Gennaro Delvecchio and Massimo Donati to Scotland from Serie A. (Daily Record)
Celtic are preparing a £350,000 bid for NAC Breda striker Maceo Rigters. (The Sun)

and here are some other transfer news~

and thats about all. take ur time to read tis rumours if u are interested in soccer. enjoy~(:

2007-06-13T19:55:00.000+08:00

hey.. alot of things to update recently. hmm, firstly, it is the outing wit 6A-05! realise i miss them so much, everyone of them i suppose?hahas. and tat is also a special day!shant say the reason yet. and up next is the gz concert. was asked nt to leave halfway during the performance hahas. kkay, i promise i wont lah.

Im gonna ROFL ler. tiffany and peirong are.... hahas nvm. great mind think alike indeed -__- went ice-skating ytd. jiaxin got a headache and so she wasnt there. ice skate for 2 hrs, venessa is horrible! argh, i wna report to the police liao! fren abuse! x= and she was the joke of the day hahahas. she wanted to push linkuan, but when lk saw her accelerating towards him, he siam, and results in her pushing some stranger. and the stranger was looking for her everywhere hahahahah! but then, the auntie skate too slow, so in the end, venessa escaped from the verge of death. abit exaggerating la bt we really dunno wat tat auntie will do. she looked as if she wanna kill someone hahas! den sophia told me she link here link there link till ex-tuition teacher GF de blog. its so so so so so so co-incidental lar. sigh. tired of blogging liao, i think im gonna close down my blog at my 50th post bah &tis is the 38th post if im nt wrong wit my countings so yea, sayonara~

2007-06-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

hmm. another quiz for me. It was a request by weijie so ohkay lorh. haahs.

7 WEIRD things bout myslf

1. I had 4 soccer balls at home. [ wonder how i kick wit 4 of it arnd rite? ]

2. I drink Ice Milo only when the ice melts [ sometimes, bt its weird la-_- like the i eat chicken rice without chicken zzz ]

3. I like to eat chocolates [ im so kiddy isnt it {f3} BUT i like it ahhas ]

4. I dont like to play comp games tat often [ unlike normal guyz at my age rite?hahas cs im sick of it]

5. I am a introvert when wit the gal i like, while extrovert wit guy frenz, or even gal de frenz [ introvert 就 introvert, extrovert 就 extrovert mah, so extra-Ordinairy xD ]

6. I am faithful, nt many guys at tis age are faithful bah [ at least my longest crush is 3 yrs 7 mths hahas ]

7. I like to save up alot of money and spend it at one go [ hahas, weird rite but im like tis x= ]

NOW! List 7 person to do tis quiz~

1.NATALIE
2.WENZHEN
3.ESTHER
4.MEIQI
5.YUNHAN
6.PEIRONG
7.TIFFANY

lols~ tis gonna create havoc for ur lar zzz. gd luck ;)

2007-06-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

hmm. NAT mei ask me do tis wor. she says i looked sianz. kay bah, i shall try(:

[01] is there anyone u like at the moment :
yup, i haf.
[02]Have u ever been given roses?
definitely not!i aint a gay, mind u.
[03]What is your all-time favourite romance movie?
Music and Lyrics.
[04] how many times have u honestly been in love?
Once.
[05]Do you believe everyone has a soulmate?
nt really cos i hav yet to find mine yet-_-
[06]Do you think that u should just put your friends first?
depends on the type of frenz he/she is.
[07]Have u ever had a heartbroken?
Many times lerh ><"
[08]Your thoughts on online relationship?
nah, weird sia. so fake ahhas x)
[09]Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
yup, best fren lar zzz
[10]Do you believe the statement," once a cheater , always a cheater? "
yes, a leopard will nvr change its spot.
[11]How many kids do you want to have?
limbei haven married lar.
[12]What is your favouriteee colour?
Blue(normal stuffs) Black(clothings)
[13]What are your views on gay marriage?
they muz be suffering from schzophrenia.
[14]Do you believe you truly only love once?
currently my ans is yes-.-
[15]imagine you're 79 and your spouse just died , would you remarry?
who will want me *sob* =_=
[16]At what age do you start noticing the opposite sex?
6 year old? hahas
[17]What songs do u want to hear at your wedding?
你那么爱他 by 李圣杰, my favorite song bah(:
[18]Do you know someone who likes you?
yes
[19] do you truly love someone right now?
yes
[20]What's their name?
don feel like mentioning, it only breaks my heart.
[21]Why do you love him/her?
i like her character when i first fall for her, bt im nt sure bout now lerh.

My Personal Diary

2007-06-08T01:07:00.000+08:00

If i were ever to be given a chance to reverse time, i wan to reverse to the time when i first fall for her.

It will be 219 days ago.

It was drama night, i was still hoping i could go back to 6A-05. I nvr like the class in sec 1. Hated the drama night even more. To accomplish the tasks, i co-operated wit the rest to finish my job as a crew. It eventually succeeded, felt glad tat it was finally over. While waiting for Grand Finale, we were all asked to hold our hands when we get up the stage later on. I was told by another gal tat i shld be glad to be able to hold a pretty gal's hand. I felt weird. I looked at her, suddenly had tat awkward feeling. Just then, i realised tat i had gradually fell in luv wit her. We created our own closing style when we were on the stage(so tat i will nt nid to hold her hand, despite tat its my honour to).

Reach home, i msg her about feeling so united as a class for the first time. I didnt told her how i feel like juz now for i knew she had someone whom she liked alot. I admired her. Her style of talking, her way of doing things, & most importantly, her smile~

I began searching for a gal, juz to forget her for i know she's still admiring the same guy.

Class Chalet 2006(sec)

Watching another guy holding her hands made me feel irritated. hoping i was the one doing the same thing.

Cried

Heard from her fren tat she cried over him again! i felt like bashing the guy up, why cant he treasure her when he had the chance to. He shld feel fortunate. I envy him, really. If only i was him. I swore, if i was given a chance to take care of her, i would not let her suffer, nor make her CRY!

Sec 2 camp

I was walking to the canteen to refill my water, walking past her, i looked into her eyes n greeted each other pretending to be normal frenz. Its frustruating, to keep things deep inside my heart.

March holidays

She told me she had given up on tat guy whom she had liked for more than a year. I was wondering why as she told me her reasons. Tats when i began to drop hints to show tat i like her. Waitin' for her to realise tat.

Debating competitions

She came for the preparation one day, and we were playing wit the stopwatches. We tried to stop at the fastest timing. We hit everything, the table, the chair, the floor. I even allowed her to hit my palm. she asked me repeatedly if it was pain, but i dun feel a single thing, i looked at her, smiling to me while trying to get the fastest timing. I felt like the happiest man in the world.

2nd Sports meet

It was the first time she said "jiayou" to me! I was over the moon! I told her i will. I lost the race later on, I felt devastated. I didnt fulfil wat i said. I was reluctant to tell her tis piece of news bt someone told her later on. I sat on the grass patch, tears eventually rolled down my cheeks. She asked me nt to be ponder too much over it for i alrdy tried my best. I promised to win the race during the 3rd sports meet.

3rd Sports meet.

Many misunderstandings happened before tat, she told me to "jiayou" once again. I ran as fast as i could during the race, but yet, i lost it.

Malacca trip

Many misunderstandings happened. But never did i once forget about her stuffs. I rmbed she will get carsick for very long trips. I rmbed she dun feel comfortable talking to a person while sitting in front of the person. I brought some sour plums hoping she will feel more comfortable eating it(but i do not hav a chance to present it to her)I was hoping to hav fun wit her & her frenz while at Malacca but the misunderstandings which arised, caused many conflicts between us.

I really hoped tat we can go back to the same way, when i can see u smile, and we can hav fun together. I am still waitin' , waitin' for tat day to arrive~

2007-06-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

北极星的眼泪

像斷了線消失人海裡面
我的眼終於失去你的臉
再等一會奢望流星會出現
願如果真的實現
愛能不能永遠
明天或許來不及變
但曾經走過的昨天越來越遠
北極星的眼淚說不出的想念
原來我們活在兩個世界
北極星的眼淚你哭紅的雙眼
被淋濕的諾言淹沒在心裡面
我抬頭看著愛不見

再等一會奢望流星會出現
願如果真的實現
愛能不能永遠
明天或許來不及變
但曾經走過的昨天越來越遠
北極星的眼淚說不出的想念
原來我們活在兩個世界
北極星的眼淚你哭紅的雙眼
被淋濕的諾言淹沒在心裡面
我抬頭看著愛不見

當對的人等不到對的時間
就在放開雙手的瞬間愛撕成兩邊
北極星的眼淚說不出的想念
原來我們活在兩個世界
北極星的眼淚你哭紅的雙眼
被淋濕的諾言淹沒在心裡面
我抬頭看著愛不見
整個宇宙都流眼淚

2007-06-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

back home eventually aft a long & tired day. sigh. chalet was great, bbq was a success(which mayb some people didnt really expected) i was told to buy cup noodles juz in case bbq flop and there were nth left tat were edible bah. the uncle, who stayed juz next-below chalet from ours, was kind enuff to help us out for the starting of bbq. invited ms tan(kaka fan-_-) for the bbq too. merely ate 3 sausages for the bbq, tat was kinda pathetic bah? lols. went to get the cake to celebrate for nicholas and limay=) but juz when i return back from the cake shop, i was being chased aft by a whole lot of ppl, like want to kill me like tat(we aint playing murderer till bbq ends, u dig?ahaha ) yea, i "took" the key, which made them chalet-less hahahh. den gave limay and nicholas a sort of surprising birthday celebration. aft tat, went arcade wit waiis, yf, sally, lk & wt. played loads of games at the arcade, i drummed, i drove, i threw, i hit, and i even danced x_____x waiis too pervertic liao, combo 34, kao! hahas, went back chalet aft hanging there for about 1hr or so? played reversi wit waiis. im a noob at it too, even aft winning her by a slight margin, she trash me back wit the score line of 26-38(im on the losing side) haiz. pathetic enuff. played murderer late into the night at arnd 3+ if i wasnt wrong wit the timing. got the MURDERER card for consecutive 3 times in a row. 做 murderer 做到 pek chek {f3} ahhhh, someone hor, kip saying i was the murderer wor. zzzz do i really look like one? haha, i did well as a detective too, a job being favoured by me muahahha. den went to slp for 2 hrs or so den started packing up stuffs, didnt realise yf actually returned home, juz to slp zzzzzz diaooooooo hahas, but concluding the whole chalet programme, i was quite relieved for i took up the responsibility once again since two yrs ago to book the chalet. yep, i hope we would hav another one at the end of the yr or so=D went out wit jerry and yz, forgot bring ez-link card den uncle kp sia. went cine to watch movie, tahan whole day juz wit the 2 hrs of slp, or shall i even call it a nap which was needed to tahan the whole day. watched men-in-white, totally laughed like noob like tat. it was darn farni, but i dun really recommend ppl to watch tis show, dun really haf a storyline bah. juz like the "Happily N'ever After" which i watched during march holidays. reached home at arnd 10+pm. looking so tired & listless, i shall end it here.

sayonara~

2007-06-03T01:30:00.000+08:00

today was unusual for me. lols. i took a nap at 2am, so tat i could wake up at 3am to watch the England vs Brazil match but i actually woke up at 5.30am which is when the referee blows the FINAL WHISTLE. what the heck. and so i got back to slp and woke up at approximately 1pm. tuition alwaes come at the wrong time! holidays mah, juz wanna slack and when i started doin the tuition work, i realised my brain had gone rusty liaoz-_- juz before leaving tuition, we actually started toking bout mr brown, hossan leong and such. which eventually led me to talk bout the recent video which i had viewed on hossan leong, a gay aka comedian=X i tok to antonio bout that video, which he had watched it on youtube too hahas! and we actually laughed like some mad guys out there. borrowed some books to cure my boredom hahs, tat was why i said i was v unusual today and hmm, watched the show on tv " one more chance ". it was a movie which had shown during the sep holidays in year 2005, tats long ago la but its very touching to the end of the story. yup, hahas and im off to bed now, gonna start on my holiday hw soon, i suppose x__x so buhbyeeeees!

2007-05-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

"Would You Be There" is the song i wna dedicate to euu. Would You Be There?Juz by listening to tis song, im thinking back about the fond memories tat u had left wit me. hope u enjoy~

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay,
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I'm away, would you still think of me,
and wish that you could hold me now.
hold me now~
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breathe away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there,
to kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breathe away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there,
to kiss my pain away

Would You Be There, For Me..

2007-05-27T14:41:00.000+08:00

life is great! omg! hahaha! it has been ages since i had tis kind of feelings =D got to know some new ppl at malacca trip - qianyun(cake) , sherina(clean ass), teresa, jolene, florence and they were all so nice unlike tat particular gal who has gt such a freaking attitude. only knows about criticizing others and dun even wanna take a gd look at her own problem, always think tat the problem lies wit others. At least i get to see ur true colours and i believe others do so too. i shant bother bout AP ppl or i would be undermined by this type of ppl =) first day, i was late in getting up the bus or shall i say i was the last-.- hahas, den on the way to malacca, jolene got a portable vcd player and was watching "shes man" and me, ak and gong li joined her hahas. tat was when i got to know jolene. later, got to know teresa through borrowing of the 15 numbers puzzle and florence as she is pro in mixing up the puzzles for ppl who are playing-.- got to know sherina through rujing and chua who says tat she got a christian name consist of monica and her surname chng. i tot they were kidding wit me but her surname was for real. of cos the christian name was made up by them and later on, i created one for her, qi ka(in hokkien) so together is "qi ka chng"(clean ass) =X got to know qianyun through hmm, some chatting while toking to jolene?hahas, they were all nice ppl luhhs. only if we were all in the same class. teacher dam freaking kp, alwaes kp us for being so vulgar la esp my shirt x__x went arcade played tat punching game, hit 81, 76 & 82 pounds respectively. its so nice to vent my anger on that punching pad hahaha! I imagined her face was on the punching pad and PUNCHED IT!=D the most impt part of the trip was shopping! bought accessories and even a cap for zg siah, how nice im luhhs xD on the way back to sg, feel so reluctant to leave them(doesnt include her) and we played, chatted, and joked. 5 of the FFF members didnt manage to attend(ZG,JOEL,SQ,RACHEL,VEN). if they had come, i believe we would be enjoying more than wat had alrdy been so enjoyable for us lerh. From tis trip, i got to know many other frenz who are much much nicer w/o AP and had got friendly characteristics which are the type of frenz im looking for=D

2007-05-11T15:04:00.000+08:00

i cant continue bottling up things lerh, im so stuffed up! i regretted, REALLY regretted! why hadnt i heed zg's advice earlier on?how i had wished i had listened to you. im sry, if i had listened to you, all these may nt hav happen le. juz wan to cry out loud, ty zhangxin for lending me ur listening ears=) there're many ppl who are nice out there which i had nt realise much earlier on and HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIRONG!(: hope tat ur wish will come true haha and for ur present, u want me to pass to u or through sun? =X haha, june holidays coming ler, its time to distant myslf from the sch to hav some peace with my family and pri sch frenz(:

2007-05-02T05:19:00.000+08:00

爱的正好

可能是久违的甜蜜

可能是潮水的来去

把眼泪流成一阵雨

能不能够流到你心里

一定是潮水的魔力

让海岸也无能为力

就当是生命中的奇迹

改变了天涯海角的距离

可能大雨来得太早(女: 我还不知道)

可是情话说得正好(女: 我还在寻找)

再怎么样寻找

来时路已经找不到

可能缘份来得太早(男: 我还不知道)

可是情话说得正好(男: 我还在寻找)

当我以为再等不到你却突然停靠在我怀抱

2007-04-25T09:53:00.000+08:00

as usual, exams were stil cope-able. aft sch today, went to amk hub along wit tw and zg. zg bought a shirt and a pair of sneakers. the sneakers nice luhhs. lols. den slack arnd there, went arcade. shucks lar, my drumming skills deprove like siao! i failed "right on time" numerous times liao lor. wakao. the rest still ok, tyco pass "begin" xD somethings happened aft tat, cant say=X hahas, tw, tmr ur turn ler worh, dun forget arh! lessons as usual tmr = sianz. ending here~

2007-04-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

nth beta to do now. haiz. feeling not worth it for tohwei la. nvm, i will stand by u de as wat liverpool fans all said " You'll Never Walk Alone" (: visited ur blog, wondering how long hav i nt see u ler. juz wan to ask u, "how hav u been recently? take care loads(: "

今天已是我们分手后的第467天了

2007-04-22T12:53:00.000+08:00

heys! let me update on my stuffs tis wk.
wed: aft it club went to play soccer , together with dl, with the sec 3s and we won. i scored a brace whereas kimshen,alvinkuan and weijie(winning goal) scored 1 each. me both goals scored via left footed. shld hav scored more if nt for henian's superb reflexes lar and had i scored tat bicycle kick, it would hav become the GOAL OF THE WEEK in cchms xD.
thurs: stayed back for d&t aft sch and do till quite late. jiaxin and esther helped me out loads! thx! hahas. den studied for hist and geog till v late-.-
friday: went to jiaxin's hse aft d&t. we borrowed vcd(movie) from a shop nearby den go her hse watch using plasma tv xD. esther darn funny lar. lols. watch till all scary parts den use hist book to block herslf from watching and in the end, left the book in jiaxin's hse LOLOL. as wat i said, condo rox. so nice luhhs. wanted to buy one in future too xD. thats all and hope tat my efforts will get me some gd grades(:
today! : actually nth much but tuitions only-.- but during my eng tuition, jiaxin attempt to call me like the " one missed call 2 " movie tat we ppl watched ytd but she FAILED. reason being, i put my phone in SILENT MODE & VIBRATION OFF!! ROFLMAO. she tai4 shi1 bai4 ler bah hahas, packing hcl file, shall end here=D

在拥挤地街头，你在忙碌的追求什么
在拥挤地角落，你知道失去地眼红
在拥有地角落，你是否曾经好好珍惜
在失去地时候，是否依然那么在意

一身要失败几回，才知道成功的意义
一身要爱过几回，才了解爱地真意
一身要失败几回，才知道成功的意义
一身要爱过几回，才了解爱地真意

2007-04-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

好久没有吹微风的晚上我们看着山下都市灯光
你说快乐和自由是穷人的天堂这种想法我很喜欢~OH

你要我闭上眼睛想象有我看不见的一个远方
你说地球是乐园要用心去游览这种说法多浪漫

心在飞 (心在飞), 路很长 (路很长)
我们是彼此的避风港
听着你, Ibelieve
聊到从前和未来你心里所有的梦跟我很像

Oh You Light Up My Life 所以我也希望我们心中频率都一样
梦加点感觉思念装上翅膀爱是无限可能的飞翔
Oh You Light Up My Life 我想让你分享我们心动时分的梦想
这是一个开始还是一种幻想未来正在等待不是吗(未来我想和你分享)

OS：一直想跟你说那天一起吃晚饭想问你开心吗这些日子看着你追着自己的梦想快乐专心的每个样子我想我们的梦有一样的频率不是吗

2007-04-14T12:14:00.000+08:00

despite the fact tat i had my pos improved, i didnt feel any sense of satisfaction. didnt win the comp, even a 4th can get a trophy, juz a pos beta mah! why cant i do so? i feel so dumb. and realise there's another person who started to like u too. hahas, if ' he ' treats u well, i had nth to say but gif u my blessings but tis guy is. ya. i bet u know his characteristics too. i realise i shld ask no more if u are happy so ya, well, best wishes, take care. and my regrets for nt being able to claim a trophy back for u.

hmm. today was funn after sports day too! walked to lakeside mrt to find nicholas and tohwei they all, den went to JP with tohwei and chua. chua went to buy maple cash-.-'' whereas tohwei went to watch movie wit me along wit my pri sch frenz. hahas. jacky brought his previous crush along, hmm. nt bad luhhs. hahas. 品味还不错oh ^^ at least its the first time u chose someone which i can accept it-.- all previous ones were, err. ahhas. watched Mr BEAN. hahas! tis is the first EVER movie which makes me LOLROFLMAO! i was like laughing so loud till the laughters filled the whole cinema, but fortunately, alex was accompanying me all the way xD. now gonna call up ppl on HSK notes so buhbyeeees!

我只能怪我自己很没出息, 连这么简单的事情都办不到. . .

2007-04-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

wan to publicly apologize to xuecen and limay. mayb u feel tat im really making use of u ppl but i can assure u two tat im really nt doing so. hope u will be able to see tis post and forgive me. kay? and karen, i alrdy tot bout it tis morning ler and mayb wad ur said were rite, mayb im really self centred. im going to change my attitude once more and hope tat by chalet, the three of u can see the difference in me, alrite? yea and once again, im down with the illness tat the class has been infected. xuecen and limay, forgive me hao ma?dui bu qi ><

2007-04-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

haix. cj showed me the msg, on mon arnd 9pm+ whereby u said 你快被我烦死了. i was totally shocked and disappointed by tis words. didnt expect it to come out from ur mouth. it is like noise pollution to my ears. if i really irritated u, plz tell me. at least i know wat to do about it but why did u tell cj and nt me? nvm, i knew wat the outcome will be tmr but i still wann to take my chance. i didnt wan to waste the opportunity n i seriously wan to know ur feelings. i tried my very best to understand u and 我现在只想说 : “我喜欢你, 给我一次机会照顾你, 好吗？”

我很想向你表示我的爱, 但无论我多努力, 使总都无法做到。

2007-04-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

im really speechless for the time being..im thinking of u, u and only u. cant stop thinking. hate wkends cos i cant get to see u. wondering wat will happen in my days without u. i really wan to take care of u, and continue waiting in the forlorn hope tat u will give me the opportunity. haix. msg bao. tats the jialat thing. duno wat i can do at the moment. waiting till the day when i finally gather up all my courage to tell u how i feel. i merely wan to tell u " _____ , i love you, i wan to take care of u and is it possible for u to give me the opportunity to do so? " if u reject me, i think u will be the last gal i will ever fall in luv with in my sec sch life. being rejected numerous times, it makes me feel as if im a darn useless bum. cant even get the opportunity to take care of the gal i like for once. why?

2007-04-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

hmm. went for maths tuition in the morning and eng tuition in the afternoon. haiiz, so sianz la. tight schedule BUT, my legs feel much beta ler=D went to church in the evening wit yunzhun, jacky, jerry and grace. it was an invitation from grace though. jacky went there for free dinner. diaoz. but the dinner was GREAT! the fillet n chicken chop were simply delicious luhhs. jacky ate arnd 4 chicken chops and 2 fillets x__x and jacky seems to be attracted to grace. ahahahs! so tiko luhhs. now watching a gambling show, quite pervertic also-.-karen also watching!ahahahs!hmm. now doing sci hw so shall end here dhen=)

tags reply:

xuecen! : hahas. okies lahhs. takecare(:

ying : try lo. hahahs!

TIFFANY : u take care too=)

snowangel : ahhhh! thx! u boost my confidence sia. i tot u ppl gonna laugh at me tis coming fri for my 100m race. thx rio FeRdInAnD! (:

<<你那么爱他为什么不把她留下>>

如果我有能力的话, 你也不会离我而去~

2007-04-05T20:57:00.000+08:00

disappointing day for me~~ haiz. didnt expect myslf to be so weak and frail. today's race was horrible! got a disappointing result - 7th for 200m and injured my hamstring juz before warm-up. *sigh* wats more disappointing was tat i dare nt face u wit tis shyt result. u told me to jiayou, and i 拼命 louyou. haizzz.. bt the fact is, i lost to the 3rd,4th or 5th person who finishes earlier than me by 3 secs and tats including when i didnt chiong from the starting point! i jogged for 2-4 secs before chionging as i felt tat the distance was too difficult to recover ler. meaning if i had chiong-ed, i would be among the 3rd-6th positions and had i nt injured my hamstring juz before the race, i MAY, may ar, be one of the tops but they were simply too fast ler. Conclusion for the race : off form. will be recuperating at home and start to train when i recover from my hamstring injury. im really looking forward to the 100m race, when i can chiong totally and in addition, w/o hamstring injury, i hope i can perform better and i really wan to W-I-N the race for euu. i really dun wan to see u, looking so disappointed and moreover, its my promise to u tat i will get at least one award for u. let's look forward to a better tmr bah(:

gg out with xuecen and chongjin to buy present for u, den gg to watch movie. haven decided on wat to watch yet. and the miting is at 11am at tampines-.-'' wth, so early la. at the same time, im really looking forward to the malacca trip and the class chalet for 2BN '07!=D

当我发现我已再也不能遵守我的承诺, 我已无法再面对你了

2007-04-01T16:22:00.000+08:00

hahas, its 12.48am alrdy! Happy April Fool's day to the dudes out there! chatting with baoyi, waiis, sally and yifan bout june chalet! lols, talked till the chalet back in dec. hahas, still rmb tat quote " Limay's towel, huuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttt arrrrrrhhhhhx! " lols really looking forward to the chalet in june. will be discussing it on monday. 2bn '07 rox on! hahas. anw, chalet is juz another opportunity given to me for foc so i will cherish it. i cant afford to let go of the opportunities juz right in front of me anymore or i will kick myslf for tat~

tags reply:
Evelyn : tagged u and linked u lerhx(:
liane. : lols, wanna u to get influenced by me in listening to chi songs mah, my 好意u know(:

Amelia : now is im the one who's nt sure whether im attending the sports meet anot-.-

kimmy[: : dun alwaes -poke- luhs. tia leh x___x

KAREN. : lols! RE-link and TAGged u lerh. hahas. muz go the chalet wors. limay's towel~~ xD

oldchangkee : laojunk, lols. nt fickle minded la, tat one temporary nia. tis skin shld last until im tired of seeing it bah =X

aslyn : thx. finally change the colour of the bg to black ler(:

(:第一次我牵起你的双手, 失去方向, 不知该往那儿走~

2007-03-30T09:11:00.000+08:00

heys! almost 1 wk nvr blog ler. a new luv, new life, new chapter for me~ even my blog haf a new '' skin '' and song(: hmm. still having my daily routine juz dat played soccer and basketball more often recently=D tmr is the first of the 3 days for the 4 schl annual combined meet and fortunately, my event wasnt held tmr! HAHA. zg running tmr, me and wt, even nt running tmr, also going so tat we can observe and know how tough our opponents will be. den aft tat nid to return to sch to listen to the talk from 8pm-9.30pm about sec 2 streaming - haiz, stress arh! but i promise, i will work hard derh~ and dhen on sat, still dunno want go where lei. its either go out wit pri sch frenz in the morning till arnd 2 in the noon coz some pri sch fwenz having flag's day(lucky i had done mine much much earlier xD) or go to NanYang Girls School to see my class ppl performing. hmm. mayb tmr dhen decide bah. realised tat i hav pang seh-ed toh wei twice x_x paiseh siar bro, nxt time i let u pang seh me back o.o. lols. k luhhs, will update some other days when im free. buhhbyeeeess!

发现我其实正在找的人，是你(:

2007-03-24T11:14:00.000+08:00

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我作出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

2007-03-24T10:45:00.000+08:00

hmm. today was fine, lessons were as usual and my results still quite ok la. everything became more enjoyable since dismissal! first, went to 2DL to get Toh Wei, Zhang Hong and gang to play soccer, yea, gang indeed, lols. den becos alot of ppl cant come den nt as fun as we had wanted it to be. den aft the game had actually wanted to go for Track & Field training but too sianz liao so pon=X while walking to the canteen, Zhang Hong was like wthell luh-.-, pump(kicking a ball high up in terms of soccer vocab) the ball high up and straight into the lake, did it on intention somemore. zzz. lols, den waited for the current to push the ball back to the lake-bank(riverbank=/) and went for lunch. Toh Wei went to the serangoon stadium wit me to train me but it closed down-.- dhen went to hougang stadium and bowen sec was having sports day and so we waited from 5.30 till arnd 6 den go in. ran 100m of the timing 13.94-.- i think tohwei press too slow la, ambert khoo take my timing 13.36 sia dhen 200m best 30.78, faster than the timing i taken 2 mths ago by 6 secs! wat a record!lols, dhen rain like siao liao dhen tohwei and i ran home lo.tats all, later maybe going play late night basketball xD and i shall end my post here.

2007-03-16T14:43:00.000+08:00

woooooooooooo. juz reached home nt long ago(: hmm, went to ps(AGAIN!) to watch movie. sianz lar, watch wat Happily Never After, zZzZz so sianz lar, all kids nia, so laokui. before movie went to the arcade, passed Black Sheep(extreme) , Begin and Right On Time(advances). Bball machine throw best, got 11+ and racing car top hahas, karen got 5th for both times tat we played=X . den later was like chatting throughout the movie -.- waste of money larhs. den later went straight to soccer court, Alvin Chua gone. zzz but nvm cos i late mah, he gtg home too. went to the chicken rice there de basketball court play bball, den soccer at the soccer court, den bball again at the basketball court. only scored 1 time 3 pointer -.- zzz, play until 10.30pm like tat, hahas den tmr morning playing again, tats all for today, gonna chiong hw ler, byes!

2007-03-16T02:50:00.000+08:00

gd morning all! going out later wit nicholas and karen they all for a movie(: yeah! but we still hav nt decided on the movie we gonna watch later and most probably we will choose from these movies - mr bean's holidays(pg) , im a cyborg, but THAT'S OK(nc16), the messengers(pg).
hahas, hmm, after toking to wz, feel much better ler bah, she is contradicting my words though, hahas, and i think i shall juz let her be herslf, she will live better off w/o my existance(: gd luck in getting ur perfect stead bah. for me, hmm, going back to my original life, the difficult path filled with obstacles but i still haf to overcome the obstacles which are the memories she left for me. k luhhs, i will survive w/o her de, i can do it! tats all bah, shall end here, buhhbyeeees(:

2007-03-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

juz heard a saddening news nt long ago, i sincerely hope tat ur mum will be alright kkay?stay cheerful always(: went to yunzhun's hse wit jacky to do our hols hw den played ps2(winning 11)and jacky tio thrash xD hmm, after tat met jerry and kajie at heartland to hav our dinner together den later went to the arcade, taught yunzhun on daytona(beginner lap - manual), and later was told tat (not to be mention due to confidential purposes)'s mum contracted cancer, really hope tat ur mum will recover and i really look forward to seeing a healthy her nxt time when i go to ur hse(:

2007-03-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

sigh. tis morning's eng lesson was a memorable one. Ms Tan left, after her last lesson wit us. we were kinda she bu de x( but we did take photos so tat mayb nxt time we can meet up or sth(: juz gotta know her results, she got 4As! wthell larh, so darn smart cn? zzz. here are some pictures with her lo and tats marc=.= trying to gay wit me[acting lyk de norbit guy(in gal's form) and hang on to me] , he didnt realise his weight=.=
later on went to PS with zg to buy DRUMsticks(nt related to chicken plz>.<) and went to the arcade where i spent $10 over on juz drumMANIA machine, zzz. At least it allows me to relieve my stress so i seriously dont mind spending tat money xD. hmm, CT is juz nxt wk, gonna prepare for it lerh so sayonara(:

2007-03-01T16:09:00.000+08:00

hmm. juz wan to update wat had happened recently. i think i got over u lerh bahx, maybe its really fate tat we can only be frenz~ Common tests and camp coming up, shld be occupied by these stuffs for the nxt 2 wks. aww, still practising drum on these songs ;
1)PPR(advance)
2)Begin(advance)
3)Across the Nightmare(extreme)

hah. Studies were per normal lo, juz dat im getting better results as days pass by(: hmm, today's school was as usual, juz dat zg has been confining how he's feeling all these while and i can only help him by lending him my listening ears. aft sch, nicholas offered to sent us out to the bus stop via his aunt's car and it would be churlish of us to reject his kindness mah, hah. There were 5 of us, Nicholas, his cousin, Linkuan, TongSheng and i squeezing into 4 seats and linkuan was sitting like, lols=x cant say much due to Restricted content, hah. den saw jeremy at the bus stop, still playing maple>.< so lame can? lols. hmm, nth more to say ler hahas. buhhbyeeees!

2007-02-08T16:37:00.000+08:00

hey!im back! wow, i think my blog is so dead.. here, i shall update=)
Today was so sianz, having been troubled by some matters, i wasnt really concentrating during lesson time.Haiz. But even so, my results hav improved tremendously compared to last yr due to my slacking-ness=)
chi =>72/100(A2)
Sci=>20/25(A1)
Hist=>19/20(A1)
wahaha, and now's my 3 new year resolution!
1)Do well in studies(:
2)Lead a healthier lifestyle(:
3)Be with YOU(:

2006-12-04T14:28:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy rite now can? won the Most Innovative Robot Design award in comp today=)) It was like for 4 yrs since i get a major award siar, and now i may even get a chance to fly to NoRwAy to represent SiNgApOrE to compete=)) it was all like a dream as juz before the competition, i felt like giving up. I was so exhausted cuz i slept 4 hrs in 2 days(48 hrs) 1/12 of the two days can? i felt like collapsing as i didnt even hav my breakfast.. den competition time the robot was working fine and the results was great even though i didnt win the Best Robot Performance but i felt tat tis award belongs to our team cuz the top 3 teams, 1st and 3rd were cloning robots and were done by trainer and the 2nd's robot was done by trainer too AND we were in the 4th place=.='' so tis time round, if we get sponsors to support our air tickets, i'm prepare to fight it out with the top team, who alrdy manage to go NorWaY as the LEGO sponsor them for getting first. TRD, watch out for GeNoSpHeRe if we meet in norway.

2006-12-01T17:29:00.000+08:00

haiz..finally gt time to blog liao. Currently watching EPL highlights. hav been busy for the past few days preparing for FLL(one of the main robotics comp). life's really consist little surprises as yiting and hennes ahem..should nt continue saying=)) anyway, the two of u shall hav my blessings XD. holidays will be too sianz without FLL as we guyz gathered up at yiting's hse and ''do'' work =P . we ''do'' our work with ps2 and com games^^haha. hennes was so pro as he went to eat at sakae sushi without bringing money=.='' and y _ _ _ ng actually paid for tat meal:O. But as i knew hennes too well, he isnt tat kind of ppl who eats ''soft rice'' and so he will pay her back sooner but as wat edwin said, wateva belongs to him(hennes) will be hers BUT wateva belongs to hers will still be hers XD. haiz, now alrdy 1.43a.m, gtg, will blog again after my comp or mayb tmr while slacking?=))

regrets

2006-11-11T16:00:00.000+08:00

marc, thx for helping me to say this out cuz if its me, i dun think i haf the guts to say.
sry zeguang, i really haf my own reasons for doin so and it seems tat i'm being commanded..trust me..but its no use saying all this now, u wont believe me anymore..i really no mesos liao..life haf..hope u can understand me. my situation at tat pt of time is like urhmmm..dunno how say but all i can say is, I'm Sry

2006-11-10T12:53:00.000+08:00

finally can blog liao..my com has been down for 2 wks and 5 days..nth better to do at home..as i hav been staying at home, i hav thought bout this for a long time..>>> shld i persist or gif up?
let fate decides for me bah..i really dun wish to gif up(i also dun understand)..haiz, lord, plz let me know. i REALLY wanna know. Maybe she is like de trap tat captures my heart.

After drama nite, i felt so high man! It was the first time BN was so unite and tat particular nite, i didnt even feel lyk gg home! now i hope tat BN's unity will keep on going:) 1BN rawks!!

hav a break, hav a kitkat

2006-10-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

phew..finally the breaktime comes..so long didnt blog le..haiz..after sch today, went to lan but fully booked by others and thus, we went to the bball court near zg hse to hav a match..sianz la..zg went completed 2 rounds for the game 'abc'(in bball) and yet, cj and i did nt manage to even complete..finally reaches the 3 pointer place and i threw airball..it was like wtf? den cj beat me..sianz..the first time when i had nt enough money for myslf..thirty like sia0 den lucky 7-eleven accepts the money in the ez-link card..after a week of exams and slept onli 15hrs to ta han 4 days(96 hrs). n0w is like d4mn tir3d and feel like slping but wat an opportunity to use com for games, of course i play lar..as i said, HaV a BrEaK, hAv A kItKaT=)

2006-09-11T07:23:00.000+08:00

today, me, lex and jacky went for bball competition and as expected..we tio thrash..lolx..we were the youngest among all the bballers..it is a 3 on 3 bball tournament and consists of 3 categories - under 18, under 20 and girls. we were in the under 18 group..first match : zAfOnIc V.S DeViL
Final score zAfOnIc 2 DeViL 22 =.=''.. and this tournament is $35..i paid $10 and felt tat i shldnt take part in the first place..but i think this is an important experience to us..lex felt unhappy that we lost and had an exchange of words with me..but soon..it was over..i went arcade with jacky to relieve myslf..my daytona skills improved by leaps and bounds..lolx..got 1st for 2 consecutive times in the advanced round..learning drum currently.. later on..alex and i decided to form a bball team..i came up with a proposal waiting for him to view it..hope that our dream bball team would be formed..